Adoption Raw
I hope to have time…but there are tons of things I want to talk about that aren’t brought up on the adoption boards. I want this to be a place of free discussion – not complaints, but insight into what’s surprised me the most, least, etc. Where my insecurities are as an adoptive parent, and how our family has grown and changed.
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Ahh there are so many insecurities as an adoptive parent and every situation is different. I have scoured web pages upon web pages looking for a situation like mine and I haven’t been able to find any! Every day is a blessing from God with my little one and I never take it for granted…or if I do I quickly snap myself back from it….but oh how many insecurities race at me every day. things such as: When he grows up will he look at me and hate me or say to me…”well you aren’t my real mother”…oh how that will cut like a knife! I know, I know it’s all in how you raise them…but these are insecurities that I face every day. I also think that if I’m ever able to have a child biologically if I will love them more than my little man…I certainly hope not…but these are fears that just don’t go away sometimes. sometimes they are shouting right in my ear…sometimes they are a silent whisper..but they are always there.
Everyday is a great day with my family…we might not always have all the money or all the new gadgets but we have the stability of having each other in a world where so many families grow up with one parent or maybe even two parents just screaming at each other all the time.
In time, I’m sure, God will erase these insecurities and then they will be replaced with new ones. Every day I give them to God and continue on into the path that He has chosen for me in this time.
Hi! Thank you so much for your response. I totally agree. You have spoken the words that bounce around in my heart on a daily basis. It’s a combination of insecurity and hope because we do have one another. It’s knowing that we can count on each other for life, and worrying that someday I might be rejected.
It’s trusting that God will take care of the details and that He will give me the strength to do my best.
As a parent who has children biologically and through adoption, I can tell you that it’s the same heart that beats for both. Each child has his or her own chamber, and the more children that come, the more additions God has built onto my ability to love.
Best wishes to you! I would love to see your blog, it’s password protected. Thanks a ton!
Marian
hey my blog is to my child that’s why it’s password protected…but I’m doing another one called my life is never ordinary…just starting it.
We have talked before on facebook. I grew up on GM with your hubby. I used to live up the road from him and we adopted our son Elijah a few years ago. My name is Laura…your hubby has me as a friend on facebook.